Dolores and Emoto: What You See

From my journal. May 28, 2021. Dolores and Emoto.

They came to me yesterday. I could see them. I could sense them. They stood there waiting for me. I was sick though, and could not manage to connect. I didn’t understand why I was ill but I was too ill to hear them.

I can hear them now.

“Dolores, what happened to me yesterday?”

Before I share her answer, here is the backstory for context: I hadn’t had my eyes examined since early 2019. I wanted an appointment in 2020, but my optometrist was not, at that time willing to accommodate my specific health requirements. That situation recently changed and so I had the “works” done on my eyes yesterday, including dilation and full optic exam with photos. I was at this office about an hour and a half.

It was a very early first morning appointment, 7am. I thrive in the early morning it was a gorgeous morning and I felt great and very happy to be there. Until. Until I got the drops to dilate my pupils. Now I have had my pupils dilated before. Many times, over many years. But yesterday, I had a much different experience nearly immediately after the drops hit my eye. I started to feel quite massively ill.

Dizziness was the first symptom, but then, sudden and increasing nausea. Chills came later, and then extreme tiredness. My intuition insisted I wasn’t experiencing a flu or virus but my conscious mind argued a bit. I mean, I had had those drops before. I was very confused. I suspected both Dolores and Emoto were going to help me understand. Dolores began.

“Both of us have a perspective to share. Here is mine: You know what I am going to say first, but it is important to say it anyway. Everything, everything is energy. Your energy, over the last year and a half (Beginning in the year with the perfect vision number of 2020) has been immersed, and also ‘focused’ upon what you, and other humans see.”

“This means what you are able to see physically, mentally and spiritually. This also concerns what you are finally seeing with humans and societal programming. So much has to do with what you are told you are seeing, what you are allowed to see, what you believe you are seeing, and of course what you want to see.”

“Now think about what happened yesterday. You walked into a conventional medical office, already this is a challenging situation for your nature. Yes, you were treated kindly, almost to a fault. And yes, you needed to go and do what you did. But you decided, you chose, to allow a chemical and medical pharmaceutical intervention to take place. That was a big deal for you and you didn’t even realize it.”

“Oh my goodness I guess I did. I mean, I didn’t think much of it at the time. But yes -you are right.”

“Candace you have placed an inordinate amount of your energy upon this concept. Combine that with your empathic nature and the focus of the entire world on these matters created a strong energy within your field. Especially in and around your eyes!”

“You laid your head back and allowed another human, to place a vision altering drug directly into your eyes. Your sight changed immediately of course, but your emotional and constitutional energy took the much bigger hit. Even without your conscious mind being aware of what was happening, your energetic field was altered and so it reacted swiftly and strongly. Your body let you know. Even when your conscious mind was quite unaware of exactly what was going on.”

Dolores paused, clasped her hands and stepped back.

Emoto smiled and bowed. “Greetings. Let us consider the liquid, the water type substance of the drops and what happened to your body during their application.”

Emoto speaks so much more slowly than Dolores. He makes big pauses between thoughts. I often feel a kind and gentle smile energy within these pauses.

“Your body’s auric field, while certainly accurately described as energetic – exists within and upon the Earth’s surface. And everywhere on the Earth, even the driest climates and deserts, have water vapor in the air. Your body emits vapor too, both with your breath, your speech and even your cooling mechanism of perspiration. So your auric field, is held within and is expressed within this water charged environment.”

At that point he actually shows me an image. Me, sitting in the optometrist chair with my energetic field, shimmering and looking as if it were comprised of a collection of small rainbow colored prisms.

Me (willingly) opening up my energetic field toward the top and tipping my head back. The optometrist and his field, a much different, but not unpleasant auric field entering mine with the small bottle containing the dilation drops- a much more dense, almost oily black color. All of these fields combine. The optometrist squeezes the bottle and the drops enters first my left and then my right eye. My energy field instantly reacts. It instantly contracts and retreats and recoils inward.

“The drops may have physically entered your eyes and began to circulate in your body that way, but the energy of them instantly affected your entire life force system through the communication of water droplets within all of these energetic fields. Your body’s water vapor field  immediately began to mount its reaction and protection forces before the droplets could even circulate physically to those systems.”

“I had questioned how I could feel so sick so quickly.”

“That is how. Now. Let’s discuss why your body reacted so strongly. Your thoughts, actions and beliefs have focused for a while, and certainly since 2020, upon seeing and knowing reality as purely as possible and your desire has been clear: uncensored truth. You have practiced honing your discernment. You have carefully protected your energetic field and consciously evaluated your interactions and environment and what you watch or see and deliberately allowed some things in and put up boundaries for things not desired. And then…” Emoto trailed off, allowing me to finish the thought.

“And then I accepted and allowed a medical chemical intervention into my eyes without really thinking about it. Something that instantly changed my body and within minutes changed the way I ‘saw’ my reality. Including what and how much light would come through.”

Emoto nodded. “Your body was shocked and surprised. You have been such a careful gatekeeper, this seemingly small thing was a huge shock to your system, because it was wholly unexpected.” After a slight pause he went on to say, “With some prior preparation and communication with your body element, the reaction may not have been as negative nor as uncomfortable as it was. You did however quickly introduce helpful mitigating responses with herbal support, meditation and the detox yoga practice.”

“I will definitely know better next time.”

Emoto finished by saying, “You had good news, though in the end, did you not?”

“I did. The early somewhat concerning tiny changes to my macula first measured in 2017 have remained minimal and utterly unchanged. They haven’t affected my vision. I guess what I am doing is working.”

“That it is.”

Emoto bowed. Dolores smiled and they faded away.


  1. Alice Liu on May 29, 2021 at 10:52 am

    I got booted off of Facebook and have been missing my regular Candace “fix.” I’ve had a detached retina in one eye and torn retina in the other, but have not been “feeling” the need to go to my doctor. Instead, I take off my UV protected glasses whenever I am outside, despite terrible vision. The last two times I went to get new prescriptions, my eyesight had improved significantly after a lifetime (56 years) of severe nearsightedness and astigmatism. The last time I went, the optometrist was stunned that my astigmatism is gone. Viewing this as playing with manifestation and timelines has helped. Life is grand!

    • candacecrawgoldman on May 29, 2021 at 11:20 am

      ooooh! I have missed you Alice, wondered where you were. Yeah the censorship is disgusting. I am so happy you left this note and so happy with your story! Let me know where I can go to stay connected? <3

      • Alice Liu on May 29, 2021 at 11:57 am

        Right now I am on Twitter and Gab ( and; and always by email and my website but the social media accounts are just holding space for the time being. I am sure the media platforms will be shaken up and. I’m looking forward to potential new platforms without the current censorship and am willing to wait. I’m sure you’ve felt a shift from red pilling (which is kind of backwards looking) to creation energy (maintaining new frequencies for the timelines we want to see manifest). We will all fully reconnect again on the other side of this! Much love and xoxo Alice

  2. Spencer Rouse on May 29, 2021 at 11:25 am

    This was a beautiful and inspiring message. I’m sorry you suffered, but it pointed out some much needed truths to me, especially at this particular time in my awareness.
    Thank you for sharing this.
    Spencer Rouse

    • candacecrawgoldman on May 29, 2021 at 4:10 pm

      You are so welcome Spencer, thank you for the comment. 🙂

  3. Renee on May 29, 2021 at 12:36 pm

    Wow, needed this. Last month my optometrist dilated my eyes and said I have macular degeneration and need cataract surgery. I had a pre-surgery appointment scheduled for yesterday which I rescheduled at the last minute. The reason, I’m have been feeling uneasy about insertion of an artificial lense, as well as an opthalmologist who, although he is a medical professional and treated me pre-Covid pandemic, I feel post-Covid pandemic (if you want to call it post) I don’t really “know”. I just feel very, very apprehensive. Candace your article was right on time!!!! Thank you for sharing.

    • candacecrawgoldman on May 29, 2021 at 4:09 pm

      You are so welcome Renee. Best of luck. I too have “early” macular degeneration in one eye but it is completely stable now for 4 years. I also have a tiny cataract in my other eye. It too stable for 4 years. I understand your unease!!

  4. Eva Reese on June 3, 2021 at 12:02 pm

    How lovely to hear from two dear friends! I am being stubborn about the covid vaccine because I don’t want it. I feel if I don’t take it, don’t have certificate, others will be telling me I can not freely travel where We could before. Waiting patiently for my right answer. Many thanks for these insights ❤️

  5. Jeffery Scout on June 10, 2021 at 3:08 pm

    I really liked this post. I will hold to the 2020 year of perfect vision energy, as I have little (for my age-which I hope to drop) issues I would like to correct.
    I like approaching subjects from the “energetic” viewpoint for two reasons, one it “feels” more real to me than what I hear and see around me (in relation to others) and two, from the energy perspective, subjects feel like they transcend the Ego we all carry to some extent or another.
    Please keep it up!
    Joy Peace Love

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